Thank you for the sweet words! I'm sending you big hugs for where you're at, too! Let's just acknowledge for a moment that we're both rockstars for wading through it, haha.
Similar to you (or sounds like it), I've been going through this spiritual awakening since the beginning of 2019, and it has only intensified. Sometimes it's so magical and others feel like I'm clawing around in the dark. But I'm so thankful for my spiritual practices and the Akashic Records, otherwise, it would be extremely difficult. Do you have practices of your own to lean on?
And hope you don't mind, but I wanted to speak into your dilemma. I grew up in family businesses and understand leaving isn't easy. But the good news is that you don't have to until you're ready. And one of these days, you will be! So don't let guilt or pressure wear you down. You're exactly where you're meant to be at this time! Plus, I don't know if you're wanting to leave to do something else, but if so, start small - take tiny steps and then build on them with time. Or not - whatever resonates with you.
Sometimes I think our societal conditioning makes us think we have to take huge strides to get anywhere, but I've found the tiny steps do wonders. The Universe is always standing at attention, they're usually just waiting for us to be ready.
Let me know if I can help in any way, but regardless, I'm with you and we'll get through this! ♥️ 🙏🏽