Personally, I think it’s wonderful you wrote down why you shouldn’t drink and admitted it wasn’t enough. It’s downright therapeutic to be so honest with ourselves. And it helps to shift the energy of where you’re at.

You’ll look to the future when you’re ready to, but it’s good to honor where you’re at and admit it sucks! We need to do more of that—with everything in life.

As someone mentioned here, we’re bound to repeat what we forget—it’s too easy.

I’m not an alcoholic but I spent 2019 sober and had the biggest awakening of my life because I always thought alcohol made life more interesting but I realized it just stole it from me. It had been my favorite numbing agent to deal with life. It helped me to calm down. It helped me to step outside of who I thought I was supposed to be. It helped me be who I was on the inside.

But the “help” just handicapped me and held me back from doing them on my own.

2019 was the healthiest year of my life but it wasn’t easy. I realized how I was using alcohol and knew that I needed to build a new “toolkit” of things to help me deal with life, with myself. I’d love to share it happened quickly, but I only scratched the surface in that year of sobriety.

It’s taken time for me to find replacements but I have. I’ve changed the reason I reach for a glass of wine and am intentional about never drinking it to handle my emotions. And when it comes to social situations, I make sure to always have something in my hand—even if it’s just a stress ball, haha.

If I might offer some advice, it would be to find something to replace alcohol with instead of trying to quit. When we want to step away from things that no longer serve (better way to look at them than quitting/breaking), we need to fill that space with something else. That empty space if why we often go back to the thing.

For instance, when I quit smoking so many years ago (after trying for so long), what finally worked was replacing my habit of smoking with sipping on water. I realized that I wasn’t quitting one habit, I was quitting several—smoking after I ate, smoking and coffee in the AM, when I was stressed, after sex, etc. The truth was that I didn’t have the discipline to quit so many habits, but I did have the fortitude to create ONE new habit to replace them with. I started carrying a water bottle with me everywhere and gave myself a big fat X on my calendar everyday and it eventually worked.

I applied this same logic to drinking and like I said, it didn’t happen overnight, but it’s been a beautiful road of discovery and I’m still finding new ways to deal with life that actually serve me.

Regardless, your honesty is admirable, and I’m cheering you on. Choosing to live a sober life isn’t easy but it’s BRAVE in a world that wants us numbed out on something. Wishing you the very best on your journey ♥️🙏🏽

Spiritual Guide. Intuitive Channel. Podcaster. When you invest in yourself, the world benefits. Check out my Soul Driven Podcast http://ahnahendrix.com

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