Dec 30, 2022
My Biggest Lesson in 2022
It’s Worthy of a Huge Celebration
What a year 2022 has been!
If you’re a regular reader of my work then you know I’ve been MIA for a few months outside of sharing Akashic forecasts and whatnot from my work.
But I haven’t been able to show up and share My Heart, which is my favorite thing to do. To share the lessons and experiences.
Since October 1st when my partner and I moved, I’ve been going THROUGH IT and much of my time has been spent processing. Reviewing. Learning. And evolving.
They say the best things come through difficulties (or hard work) and I couldn’t agree more.
For those who know Human Design, my profile is a 1/3, and that third line keeps me grindinggg on the lessons, buddy!
The good news is that I’ve got plenty to share with you in the months to come and I intend upon it.
But today, I wanted to share my biggest lesson from 2022. And the biggest reason I can’t stop giving thanks for 2022.
Side note: I encourage you to choose the greatest lesson from 2022 — one that’s changed your life for the better. And please share below, I would love to hear about it!
2021 was H A R D for me. The hardest year of my life. I was still in transition between leaving my life as the CEO of a marketing agency to becoming a spiritual guide.
And I wasn’t sure it was what I wanted to do.
Moving forward on that path meant starting my third business and taking a seriously brave step into the unknown.
While I’d spent nearly a decade helping others build businesses, building a spiritual business is totally different. There are no models, no templates, and it can’t be done by sheer will alone — believe me, I tried.
Building a solid spiritual business can only be done in partnership with God and one’s Guides. And it requires a different kind of integrity than any conventional business does.
In November 2021, I took my traditional birthday walk with God. I had turned 40 and was considering my future. And as I was contemplating where I wanted my life to be when I turn 50, I knew I had to go for it.
That day I offered up my total dedication to becoming a spiritual guide to God and my Guides. I promised to give it everything and trust that if it wasn’t meant for me, other doors would open. I wouldn’t be vacillating anymore — there was only one path forward.
And that’s how it’s been since that day.
But 2022 brought plenty of challenges. And although they were nothing like what I faced in 2021, I questioned my evolution many times.
Would I ever make enough money? Would I ever know about stable and consistent income? How long would it take me to get something solid under my feet? And much more.
I didn’t question the path, but I had plenty of questions about the price I’d pay to get somewhere I could be proud of. And it plagued me constantly.
One of the lessons I’ve been learning since I discovered the Akashic Records in 2020 is that my value isn’t tied to my achievements. But that’s a hard one for an Enneagram 3 aka Achiever who’s also an entrepreneur. In the entrepreneurial world, everything is numbers. Data. And all of it equates to whether or not someone is successful aka worthy.
But when you’re building a new business, the tide comes in and it goes back out just as quickly. One month, I’d do extremely well, and then the next two would be minimal.
However, I kept catching glimpses of the peace I would experience if I stopped worrying and let it all go.
Again, a huge ask for an overachiever.
At the end of September, it was time to move. We had sold the majority of our things and decided to be road nomads living in Airbnbs around the US.
We were meant to move on September 30th but Hurricane Ian arrived in North Carolina and kicked off the scariest and worst moving experience of my life.
It wasn’t scary because of the hurricane, although it was an inconvenience and pushed our moving day back one.
But over the next few days something took over my body and I dwelled in such a state of fear that I could barely breathe. I fell apart and my partner had to fully take over.
It had never happened before.
During that time, everything that could go wrong — did. And then some. And there were a few times when I didn’t know if we would get out of the situation safely.
It’s too much to go into and quite frankly if I tried to explain it, it probably wouldn’t sound so bad.
But it felt like the end of the world to me.
And the tough stuff didn’t end when we got settled in. It took us three weeks before things calmed down and I was able to breathe again.
The best way to explain it is that I went through the death of my old self. My old life. We had been too comfortable on the coast. Life had been too easy. And as I’ve always known, that is dangerous for me. To me, complacency is the worst way to live life and that’s where I’d been.
This period of life and its meaning is still unfolding for me.
Some of the tough issues, like AWFUL internet, are still occurring. Here in the mountains, our landlord pays $350/mth for mediocre internet AND that’s not even unlimited — it’s only for 300 GB!!!
By the end of October, I had been through a LOT.
But I saw that my business was doing great — in fact, even better than before, regardless of all the internet and health issues. And everything was thriving.
Plus, the silence of the mountains and our small cabin that’s tucked away in the woods had begun working its magic on me.
I was sleeping beautifully. I felt calm and rested. And the whisperings of my Guides had been growing louder and louder…
It was time to let go.
I can’t remember the exact day, but I went for a walk among the trees to speak with God. And under a huge Oak tree, I offered up my resistance in prayer.
I told God that I was tired of trying to control everything and that it was now His job. I promised to show up and do the work I knew to do, follow through on my guidance, and let go of trying to control the outcome.
God had shown me that although my business wasn’t growing at the pace I wanted, it was growing, and I could trust Him to assist in that continuation.
I lay the worry of making money or building a successful business at His feet. I told God that I wanted to trust but that I’d need help because it didn’t come to me naturally.
And I let it go.
(Disclaimer: I use the pronoun He/Him for God because that’s what is most natural for me)
The past two months have simultaneously been the hardest and the easiest of the year. I’ve been dealing with family issues and drama. Relationship issues. Thanks, Mars Retrograde — not.
But I’ve been able to trust like never before. And I’ve seen the fruit of that trust, not just within my business, but also within my life.
I released the responsibility I’ve carried my entire life to take care of my family.
I kicked shame and guilt to the curb over who I am and the ideas of what is right/wrong for me.
I healed my digestion issues and no longer have food allergies or an auto-immune disease.
I feel lighter and stronger than ever. More ready and equipped. And totally, completely crystal clear on what I want for my future.
Giving up my control and placing my full trust in God has been one of the best things I’ve ever done. Whhhhy didn’t I do it earlier, haha??
Because it wasn’t time yet.
Everything happens in divine time — we are never behind, never off-course, and never fall short.
And I share this with you because if my messes can assist you in any way, I gladly offer them up.
My story isn’t all roses — I’ve still got plenty of work to do.
But for now, I’m heading into 2023 with the ability to lay my worries at the feet of God and live my life in a way that brings me joy.
Worth a celebration if you ask me :))
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