When I decided to publish a daily blog for the month of February, I knew it would be fun. That it would push me to create in short bursts of time. And that it would force me to make published writing a priority again.
All tangible things.
I didn’t expect to gain psychological insights into my working patterns and personality.
But since I’m halfway through, I wanted to pause and share what I’ve realized thus far.
Here are a few insights I’ve gained in the past 14 days.
I care too much what other people think.
When I first embarked on this personal challenge, one of the promises I made to myself was to write for myself — without concern for what others thought and without attachment to the outcome.
But time after time, I caught myself pulling back and questioning what I was writing about, whether anyone else would like it. Questioning whether or not they would agree. If it was politically correct. If I sounded too bossy. Or they’d judge me.
Blah, blah. I couldn’t believe how much I questioned it!
The good news is that even though I kept catching myself, I also kept reminding myself of my promise and was able to let go.
Most importantly, I noticed that when writing was difficult, it was mainly because I was thinking too much about how it might be perceived by others.
Therefore, letting it go made it much easier to write.
“Good enough” is GREAT.
It’s been highly liberating to push through my innate perfectionism (i.e. hopes of bypassing shame) and click Publish on a “good enough” blog each day.
That’s right. “Good enough” is good enough!
Another one of my promises was to not get too caught up in the writing or editing processes but to let it flow until it was done, edit and move forward.
And that’s a GREAT thing.
It’s not like I’ve just been puking these blogs out. Or not editing or caring how they flow or if they produce a cohesive message. I simply haven’t lost hours in circumspection over whether or not they can be bettered. They can ALWAYS be bettered.
Here’s to breaking down outdated perfectionistic behaviors!
“Notification Addiction” Runs Rampant Across All Platforms.
I took a social media break for the month of January and it was so epic that I decided to extend it into the month of February. Btw, THOSE insights are coming soon.
But what I quickly realized is that I’m just as hooked on a clap/comment as I am on any other platform!
This was fascinating because I thought my “break” from heavy-hitters like Facebook and Instagram was breaking me from the notification addiction we all suffer from so greatly.
Well, I thought it did until I got my first new follower. New comment. Then I began checking the Medium app pretty consistently to see if there was any action. And if so, I could feel that happy part of my brain zinging away.
Now it’s apparent, I need to come at this “notification addiction” from another angle. Haven’t figured it out yet, but it’s clear that breaks don’t fix that problem.
Back to the drawing board.
It’s empowering to share whatever I want to share.
Yes, I’m a people pleaser. I care what others think. I am highly aware of other people’s thoughts of me and around me at all times. Thanks, empathic nature.
But I love, love, loveeeee sharing whatever, whenever, however through my writing.
And even more, I LOVE writing while letting go of what people think. Agree, disagree — your choice. Like, dislike — that’s cool.
I LOVEEEE writing for myself. For practice. For a challenge. And about any damn thing I feel like.
Because there’s SO MUCH knocking around this head of mine. My brain is literally a six-lane highway 24/7 so there’s alwayssss something to say or share.
So while I do hope my writing is enjoyable to you, I do it for me. To make space in this neverending mind. To share what I know, have seen, and think others could benefit from.
Just doing my job, ya know! ;)